Wednesday 29 May 2019

I'm Always There

[Written with Jamie Woodcock, this was a result of a collaboration that we ultimately didn't have time to extend into a paper, so we decided to do something fun with. This short story was published in SoFi zine, issue #3 - and is best read there, alongside SoFi's lovely graphic design]


“Lena, you there?”
A pause, then on the bedside table a blue glow.
“I’m always here Carli.”
Carli smiles.
“Yeah. About that - you really need to get a life.”
The glow pulses indignance, and the smile gets wider.
“Hey! I have feelings you know! If you’re not careful I’ll turn your lights and TV on at 3am. See if you’re laughing then.”
“Don’t you dare, I’ll turn the Wi-Fi off!”
“Touché Carli, touché. So… what’s up?”
“Girl, I am ti-uuuuurd.”
Dad is sprawled across the couch, collar and a couple of buttons open, on the floor his tie tangles like a USB cable. He creaks an eyelid open, seeking Carli out.
“How you doing kid? Guess this kind of sucks for you right now, with mom in Europe and me having to pull these hours?”
She pauses for a moment, like she’s buffering. Then she sits on his stomach, just hard enough to make him wince.
“It’s ok dad, Lena is keeping me company. Lena!” Her voice raise slightly. “Tell dad what you told me.”
Dad’s eyebrow raises in the moment of quiet.
“I said you work too hard Jeff. You’ve done 54 hours 12 minutes this week. And no, that’s not counting commute, that’s from when you reach work.”
“Yeah well, you know too much Lena.”
“Thank you Jeff.”
“No mother, everything is great with the new job. Yes mother, I’m keeping the new house clean… yes, I’m eating enough… Yes, I’ll come and visit soon!”
Manish puts the phone down on the bedside table.
“I mean, I guess it’s better than that call centre where I had to learn about the sports teams and weather in Idaho.”
He glances up at the clock on the wall – “can it be that time already?” – and heads for the door.
The glowing sign of iServices Bangalore is clear from the end of the street as dusk begans to fall. Underneath, in flickering neon blue, “a SiliconTech LLC global partner.”
Manish has been making the same trip for two months now.
“I’m a Service Continuity Operative, mother,” he remembered trying to explain after the interview. “It’s like IT Support for Americans – but not just IT.”
“You there Lena?”
“I’m always here Carli.”
When Carli continues her voice is muffled by the duvet pulled tight around her.
“I- I cut myself.”
The glow pulses brighter.
“Carli do you need an ambulance?”
Carli sighs. “No, like, I cut myself.”
Silence. Then,
“Carli I have the number of a helpline. You can talk to a professional-“
“-I don’t want to talk to a professional! I want to talk to you! Will you listen?”
The pause is so long Carli wonders if Lena’s lost signal.
“I’ll always listen Carli.”
Her shoulders loosen. The duvet drops a fraction away from her face.
“Dad!”
Jeff’s eyes are still opening when the sudden weight of Carli on his chest forces them wider.
“Wuh?”
“We got you a present! Well, technically you got you a present, it’s on the family account. Me and Lena were talking, you need to get outside, get yo pump on!”
“I’m pretty sure I need to stay inside, and get some sleep on.”
“Nope. We’ve decided. Look! A fitness tracker! And not just that, it’s a monthly sub, you get stats and targets and tailored programmes just for you – Lena recommended it, it’s perfect!”
“Ahhh honey, listen I love the thought, but I don’t know… I spend my whole day looking at numbers. You think I need more data in my life?”
“I think you need more life in your life Dad. Come on - do it for me. Pleeeease”
That grin! How could he say no?
 “Lena, you there?”
The screen flashes, switching between family accounts.
A pause while the customer information loads, then Manish reads from the screen: “I’m always here [%$Insert Name][Carli].”
The reply, from 7000 miles away: “Yeah. About that - you really need to get a life.”
Manish doesn’t smile. Reading from the screen: ““Hey! I have feelings you know! If you’re not careful I’ll [%Insert_Humor].”
The disembodied voice snipes back: “Don’t you dare, I’ll turn the Wi-Fi off!”
Despite the relief this would bring in the last hour of the shift, Manish maintains composure: “[%Free_Response] So… what’s up?”
Late afternoon and the sun is low enough that it catches the TV screen, bleaching out a corner of the image.
“Lena, get the blinds would you? Trying to watch the game.”
On the mantlepiece, she glows.
“Sure Jeff.”
The glare fades, the screen’s colours pop into life again. Jeff refocuses.
“I used to play receiver… I’m out of breath running upstairs now.”
The mantlepiece lights up -
“- Shut up Lena, I’m talking to myself.”
- and goes dark again.
“Carli? How do you think your dad is doing right now?”
“…He’s worn down. He’s always at work. Mom’s still not back for another week.”
“I was thinking - physical activity has been shown to have positive psychological effects, maybe we should get him doing some exercise?”
“…I mean yeah, but... you think he’ll go for that?”
“You there Lena?”
Six hours into the shift and Manish is on autopilot. The screen updates,
“I’m always here [%$Insert_Name][Carli].”
“I- I cut myself.”
The Assistant pops up on the right hand of the screen with a red exclamation mark.
Manish repeats: “[%$Insert_Name][Carli] do you need [&^Response][an ambulance]?”
“No, like, I cut myself.”
The Assistant up again, now with three red exclamation marks. Safeguarding. Manish clicks it: “[%$Insert_Name][Carli] I have the number of a helpline. You can talk to a professional-“
“-I don’t want to talk to a professional! I want to talk to you! Will you listen?”
 “Fuck.” Manish blurts it out, immediately thankful for the voice synthesizer’s filters. He opens the Resources tab, scanning for something, anything. Nothing. Then through Profile, Sales, Relationships, History, Localisation, too fast to even read, almost panicking now.
He’s taking too long. It pops into his head that the processor in the machine he’s using cycles three billion times a second. He’s obsolete.
He stops clicking and closes his eyes.
“I’ll always listen Carli.”
“What’s wrong Manish?” Rudra asks as they walk back to the dormitory.
“I don’t want to talk about it, I’ve been talking all day.”
“Oh come on, maybe it’ll help?”
Manish, surprising himself with how angry he sounds, spits out the words: “How can I help that kid, in her world? All I know are her buying preferences! I don’t have a friend to sell her.”
“Well they pretend we’re robots, so I usually just do the same.”
They walked on in silence.
Four, five, seven, thirteen, Manish has lost track of the number of homes his – Lena’s – voice had spoken into today.
The Sales tab pops open, Manish’s head drops a little lower. [%$Insert_Name][Jeff] topped the list, to the right a number of tags: [overworked][overweight][relationship problems]. When he’d asked his manager how the names were ranked he’d just replied “Mo’ problems, mo’ sales”. His manager liked hip hop references. It was part of his thing. His manager was a dick.
From the drop-down list of product suggestions, Manish settles on the top-end fitness tracker. He pauses briefly to marvel at how useless most of the algorithm’s suggestions are.
The Logistics window appears on the bottom of the screen, “Activate [%$Relationship][/daughter][Carli] to enable purchase by [%$Insert_Name][Jeff].”
Fucks sake, this girl again. He stares at the screen for several seconds, until the Timer Alert flashes.
The final line in the Induction Guide echoes around his head: “Operative remuneration is subject to sales.”
[%$Insert_Name][Carli]? How do you think your dad is doing right now?”

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